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New Moon Musings – May 2017

An ancient Blog, discarded for a time, to renew and compost into thoughts of old patterns and new potentials…  like a nut on the ground it’s food long since snatched up and nourishing another, older body.    Yep, that’s us today.   😀  walnut

Recently, I lost my phone, for 12 days.  It had died, it had fried, it was gone and offline.   I was effectively Unreachable when not at work, except by the few times I popped online to login to my facebook messages.  Otherwise, totally incogNate-o.    All my e-contacts were gone (no , I do not back up to “the cloud”, and my physical paper-analog Address book did not have all names the phone did.)  Mental note: get better at updating Analog technology. 😉

This experience was actually fairly nice, by the fourth or fifth day.   I stressed over “DISCONNECTION!” for the first few days, and realized just how OFTEN I had been texting Tammy daily to coordinate the sprog’s activities and say hello, and a few other friends I usually SMS with outside of facebook.  But that eventually settled into the new routine.

I also realized what apps and things I used my phone for were actually “important” to me, and not just “time wasters”.   The garmin synch for my walks/jogs was missed.  as was Geocaching app. (and associated C:Geo app).   resetAlmost all the other Games and gadgets and gizmo apps were relegated to the Dustbin of Dis-use.     Overall, it was a great RESET.

However, I needed (ok, Wanted) a new phone eventually and wound up splurging a little on a Samsung Galaxy s7.   Another thing I had discovered (after how to text and add contacts , etc) was that I missed using the camera to send silly pics and capturing random moments with the kid.  Yes, it’s a symptom of the Social Media generation I suppose, but I rather Enjoyed visiting the waterfall once a week if just to update the “Cover photo” on my facebook.  So, New phone in hand, I set off to refresh that image.    THE CAMERA IS AWESOME!

20170524_141647.jpgCompared to the old device, I think this is a better camera than even a Real Camera I used to have back when married.   This phone rocks. It took the pictures shown here (but the smaller version posted does not do them justice).  My favorite is the “walnut” one above.  That was a happy little bit of Serendipity, where I was just snapping pics and wondered how it would focus if I just set it on the ground “upside down” near that walnut shell, and clicked the snap-pic button.   I was beyond pleased with the results!

That photo actually inspired a little “writing challenge” to be posted here later.

So now, with new phone in hand, a new “lease on life” and a new monthly payment (lol), I think I’ll endeavor to persevere and Blog a bit more too.   Might as well flex the fingers, since my Jogging/Walking the Year is also doing quite well with the warmer weather.  I personally hit 100 miles so far!   More than I’ve ever done I think. (or at least tracked.. which this phone can do too!)

The only thing that would make this reset even MORE exciting is if I payed off some debt and had less working-hours between the jobs… but that’s a brightness down the Tunnel for another time.   poi_blessing2A near-future time, so I’m looking forward to it, but today, it’s the little victories that count.   Every first step begins the Journey, after all!



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Full Snow Moon musings

It’s been a quiet and exciting and boring and whirlwind few months, with this Winter season acting so warm/cold/warm/cold/warm/maybe cold.

However, I’ve been moving towards manifesting some NateLand, and/or Natehouse and have a few very nice locations picked out.  Still waiting on the assessors and Contractors to give me a rough-idea estimate on a few things to see if “NateHouse is actually in my budget, but am willing to concede a year of living in a trailer or “tiny house” while the REAL house gets built over time, by trading contractor-fees for personal sweat-equity.

With the full moon today, I figured it was the perfect opportunity to start a monthly musing, and I’d like to theme this month as one of Gratitude.

poi_blessing2I am grateful for the bounty of friends that I have, both near and far.  While most of them are “far away” physically, I am blessed with the Internet and Texts that I can communicate with them easily.   One friend, who I have never met in person, but is always included in my mental accounting of “sending out positive vibes” , surprised me last month with an unexpected gift.   I almost shed a tear for it, when I opened the package, not realizing how Amazing it was, and a bit guilty because I am horrible at receiving gifts that I do not feel  “earned”.   But, in the interest of not insulting the Gift in the spirit it was given, I  received it openly, and have it hanging on my bedroom wall, in a place of honor, to see every evening.  (Pics to follow)   It is a broom, but more than that, it is a Proper Ritual Item.  It was crafted with leathers, and crystals, and fir cones, and the image of an Owl.   It’s a sacred Broom, and I love it!   Thank you, thank you, BrowerGoddess.  🙂

I am grateful for the bounty of Friends, and the hugs and love they offer.   I wish they were closer (or that teleport technology becomes commomplace!)  😉

I am grateful for the amazing Sprog that is my son.  He’s 12, and is growing into quite the awesome young man.  He graduated to his next belt in Karate, he’s in Marching Band, he’s involved with BoyScouts, and is overall a cool frood, who does know where his Towel is most of the time.    #ProudPapa
I am grateful for the roof over my head, for as much as I keep not liking it and wishing I was elsewhere, it has kept the weather away while I lived there.  It has allowed me to grow and learn what Not to like as NateHouse, and it is conveniently located to work and Waterfall, and Kid, so is really not that bad a place at all.   I have decent neighbors, considering everything.  I am grateful the rent was affordable, and the utilities manageable.  (I do miss not having a laundry right inside my own place, though.)

I am grateful for my continued health, and it’s slow and slow, (and did I mention slow?) progress to what feels like betterment.  I know others who have less.

I am grateful for the opportunity of another Day.   Each morning, an opportunity to grow, and learn, and Do, and Be.   (is it July yet?!)

And finally, since I need to close this post, although I have many other Gratitudes to post next time, I am grateful for you, oh reader of this blog.  Or, if none read it, to the Blog itself, for being written.

Thanks!  😀


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June reboot

Preface:  I have learned how to create posts here and mark them Unpublished, so have quite a few private thoughts on this journal now, since the habit of “writing” is good on some days, but the content is lately  “things I really don’t need to post”.    So forgive the apparent silence here since the Guppy Story.  I’ll have to dig out the two others I typed up in Word or Notepad somewhere, and stick them publically for my readers….    That said, lets get down to Proper Blogging!

Life has been an interesting mix of good days and bad days.   I’m still stuck slightly, because while the smack of a Divorce/Seperation still stung, it showed me what I felt was most important in Maebius, and shined a light on the stuff I really wasn’t happy about and needed to change.  This is good.  I’m moving forward, slowly, and rather enjoying MeTime.  I’ve met some really wonderful friends, and had some really healing experiences.    Next month I’ll be at 4Quarter Farm’s  Drum&Splash  for 4 days, on my own, in the woods, with drums and river-swims, and as much/little sleep as I want, and food all covered by the Community Kitchen, and sweat lodges, and.. and.    Truly looking forward to the event as a chance to just disconnect for a few days, and REALLY process things.

It was a new moon yesterday, and I’ve started a sort of kinda of exercise routine.  Partially out of ego  (skyclad-friendly festival!), but mostly to drop off the last few pounds that crept back on as I settled into the new Apartment life, and sedentary job-work again, and increase overall fitness.   I’ve already made a huge transition in cooking style, with periodic allowances for unwholesome consumptions of Take-out  or Buffets.    Everything in Moderation, including Moderation!   hahaha.

I also have mentally promised myself to try some meditation every EVERY night for at least 15 minutes.  I’m starting small in 5-minute steps, with the intention to hit 10 minutes without  “gotta do this/that/theotherthing!” actually adding to my Anxiety, like it has been lately.  I figure, if I can’t sit offline or not doingSomethingDistracting for 10 minutes each day, I am really not ‘dedicated’ to this activity.   Yes, guilt is probably a bad motivator, but initially, it’s working to kick-start the process for me, so I’ll accept that.    Live & Learn, right?

So, I may be here to briefly document back to more Spirit-minded musings this month.   Perhaps not every day,  (ok, assuredly not every day) but hopefully a bit more often, even if the content is a bit shallower than the Deep Inner Musings that have been hiding here.   So forgive the semi-formal pseudo-scientific data-points below.   I’ll be using them this week as a record of my results.  If you don’t need to read the details, they’ll be at the end of each post, so easy to skip over.


Activity goals:

  • The 7-minute workout Daily.
  • Meditation 15 minutes (option for longer if I click with the process well)



‘Fitness’ Stats:

  • Today,  I stand at 183 pounds in the morning, according to the local scale.
  • My blood pressure is 118/89 as of last night’s check at the local supermarket where they have the self-check machine near the pharmacy.
  • I can plank for an average of 1:45  (one minute, 45 seconds).
  • I can do 4 pull-ups.
  • I forgot how many leg-thingies I did.

These are my baseline starts.  Lets see what happens in a month!


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New Moon – New Month – New Me?

It’s been about ‘3 years’ now since I moved out of the farmhouse and into a nice local apartment.  (ok, technically 1 month, it just feels like a lot happened in that timeframe!)  Things have settled down a lot, and life continues to coalesce into this new reality.

My friends have been amazingly supportive, and Time hasn’t killed me.    There were days, I admit, that it was pretty bad, but overall, each day has brought more happiness, and acceptance, and Stability.   I’m still good friends with my former spouse, the sprogling likes coming over on the weekends, and I’m getting into the new routine pretty well.

Had a guest over for dinner the other night, which was nice.  I cooked a whole meal by myself on this accursed Electric Stove!  Go Me,   🙂

Became a Skype addict lately, also to sorta ‘fill the evenings’, but also to reaffirm “cool friends out there!”.   One of which is rapidly becoming My Awesomesauce.  (which still feels weird to type publically, but I won’t deny it makes me happy.  So darn fast, but feels nice, and there’s no pressure since I still need processing time.)

I really like having “My space” for now.   I do!    Still help feed & tend to the critters back home.  Still text Good Morning to everyone, and and learned a new word:    Compersion!    

So, this month, with the holidays approaching, I’m looking around and thinking of developing a hobby,  Partially to help make little yuletide gifts for people, and partially just to do something beyond web-surfing in my ‘lonely’ evenings. 

M. O. O. N.   – That spells Maebius.   😉


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