It was the end of an era, exhausting and exhilarating both combined.

(Written as the writing prompt used as the title… to just write something every day, as the muse strikes me…)

It was the end of an era, exhausting and exhilarating both combined.
The townsfolk had apparently turned in for the evening, lights on porches casting a spot of focus in an otherwise dimming and fog-filling world of deep evening. Even the square was empty, which, he would admit, was unusual even this late, but it was an unusual evening to be sure.

Earlier that week, the local park was a bustle of activity. Some child or other had celebrated a trip around the sun, and there was still faint remnants and reminders of that still scattered in the bushes and weeds. Fragments of crepe paper, a wind-flopped balloon dancing limply from the swingset beam. But not today. Today it was empty. And it would remain so for a good while.

Sighing, the older gentleman, stared at those party-scraps, and hoisted a worn and dirt-stained shovel onto his shoulder, lifting it, as if the weight of not just wood and steel, but also decades and dispair clung to it along with the clods. He sighed again, with the merest hint of a smile, curling the edges of his lip for a moment, then faded back to grim resolution.

He walked down the street, plodding, and careful. Eyes wandering from door to door, with that vague mix of contentment and consternation. Eventually, he arrived at the door of the town hall, and set his tool down with a rough ‘clink’ of the metal on stone, leaning it against the white yet darkly-splashed pillar outside of the City Hall bricks. He ran a curiously rust-stained hand through similarly matted and russet-red tangles of hair, and sat down.

The job was done, finally, and from his pocket, the man pulled a flask, tipping its contents gratefully down his throat. The job was done.

Surveying the town once more, nodding at each fresh pile of upturned earth in front of the homes on main street. Nodding at the dried rivulets along the gutters, that would make the rain run crimson-brown when it came next. Nodding at the silence.

The man touched the shovel once more then, causing it to fall over. It fell, gracelessly into a large hole, dug beside the steps. Once, that spot held prize roses. Once it bloomed each summer, for the annual Town Picnic. Now, it was cut, and a dusty deep basket of bare ground to catch the shovel remained. The man, smiled then. A proper smile, with a hint of wild toothy, primal mirth. He pulled one more feeble and unquenching draw from the now empty flash, and tossed it into the hole beside the shovel, with what might have been reverence, or at least more focus than a mere casual act. Then, the man reached down, to the large wagon beside the hole.

He leveraged himself beside his tools, and smiles once more. “That’s better…” he whispered, to no one in particular, wiping sweat from a bloodstained brow, and laid down, reaching up to tip the wagon of dirt above him. It was dark then, outside and inside. The lights would continue to burn, for the next week, until some traveler wandered through the quiet little town, and found it’s empty homes and quiet streets.

But the man didnt care about that distant future. He wouldnt know the end, beyond the cloying earth that surrounded him at last, along with the results of his days long effort to bury the others.

It was the end of an era, exhausting and exhilarating both combined.

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A new book, begins… from the back of a van!

Usually folks say they’ve started a new chapter in their life, when Huge Changes happen… however I think my recent change is profound enough to warrant a new Book entirely! With the end of October, and first week of November being spent in the hospital, then a change in Singleness on the way HOME from said hospital, i guess it was time to make some ‘drastic’ adaptations to my lifestyle. So, I did.van0

A dear friend heard of my predicament and recent health issues and offered me the opportunity to travel South to Florida in January, to help with the Brevard Renaissance Fair, and get me the heck out of dodge for a few weeks, and reboot my brain a bit.   After about two and a half weeks there, camping, playing on the weekends as Justin Cayse with THE MOST AWESOME faire folke, I realized I had been happier than I have for probably the past year.    I quickly decided to add another two months into the “4-week vacation” (which was starting to seem like a certain Three Hour Tour.  😉 ), and offered to stay down in Florida through the beginning of April to help volunteer at the Florida Renaissance Festival, which is much bigger and longer-running than Brevard. 

Over the course of those months, I met some amazing people, and decided to ditch my apartment back in NY, and trade away my old clunker of a car, and pull the little remaining money I had set aside for my Retirement, and buy a Van, to convert into a mobile Home on Wheels, and hit the Renaissance Faire circuit full-time-ish, with Lady Ophelia More as my mentor and friend (not that sort of friend, i plan on being Solidly Single for a good couple of months if not longer). 

And so, the new Book begins.  I have minimized most of my belongings to fit within 7 totes (plus obviously bigger things like the tent and kayak that don’t fit in Totes), and got out of my Apartment in Vernon, and am now houseless, but hardly Homeless. 

Before the Big first chapter of this new adventure strikes, however, I should probably mention the crappy transition that was COVID-19.   The end of March the pandemic hit, and we were all let go, closed early, and Faire Folk scattered to the winds.  It was not a calm time, as a good number of people in the Faire world travel from festival to festival, and count on those Faires as their jobs.   With Covid-19, faires closed, restaurants were closed, and there were suddenly many people just….. Out of Luck.  No place to move their trailers and campers to, right away, no jobs there to pick up.   I luckily had a bit of savings left from my retirement, and was able to do what most did, follow someone home and park my Tend in their side yard for another month or so. 

I loved the Whitehouse property, with friends living just next tent-door, and a good group of people to keep us occupied with projects and social interaction and cooking, among our little Pop-up Commune.   I miss it. 

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Eventually though, I came back to NY to start downsizing my apartment and get out of there, as it made no sense to keep paying rent on a place I literally had not lived in for 5 months by that point.   (and the fridge crisper drawer agreed, Something needed cleaned out!  ..ew)
Unfortunately, part of my re-squatting in that apartment brought back Old Habits and Old Thoughts, and some more of that icky Depression/Anxiety that caused me to initially break down back in October.   Fought it off, mostly, but it was hard. 

Now, I’m out.  I have my van.   I have a few things stil up at the old farm that I plan on going to get in the next few days, now that I settled in for a month or so at another friend’s place.   And once that’s done, the Intro to this new book will be completed, and New Story of Van-Life will begin. 

I’ll post more and better pictures in the next post, once I remember how to upload them and use WordPress properly again.    As you can see, by scrolling through the archives…. it’s been a while.

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New Moon Musings – May 2017

An ancient Blog, discarded for a time, to renew and compost into thoughts of old patterns and new potentials…  like a nut on the ground it’s food long since snatched up and nourishing another, older body.    Yep, that’s us today.   😀  walnut

Recently, I lost my phone, for 12 days.  It had died, it had fried, it was gone and offline.   I was effectively Unreachable when not at work, except by the few times I popped online to login to my facebook messages.  Otherwise, totally incogNate-o.    All my e-contacts were gone (no , I do not back up to “the cloud”, and my physical paper-analog Address book did not have all names the phone did.)  Mental note: get better at updating Analog technology. 😉

This experience was actually fairly nice, by the fourth or fifth day.   I stressed over “DISCONNECTION!” for the first few days, and realized just how OFTEN I had been texting Tammy daily to coordinate the sprog’s activities and say hello, and a few other friends I usually SMS with outside of facebook.  But that eventually settled into the new routine.

I also realized what apps and things I used my phone for were actually “important” to me, and not just “time wasters”.   The garmin synch for my walks/jogs was missed.  as was Geocaching app. (and associated C:Geo app).   resetAlmost all the other Games and gadgets and gizmo apps were relegated to the Dustbin of Dis-use.     Overall, it was a great RESET.

However, I needed (ok, Wanted) a new phone eventually and wound up splurging a little on a Samsung Galaxy s7.   Another thing I had discovered (after how to text and add contacts , etc) was that I missed using the camera to send silly pics and capturing random moments with the kid.  Yes, it’s a symptom of the Social Media generation I suppose, but I rather Enjoyed visiting the waterfall once a week if just to update the “Cover photo” on my facebook.  So, New phone in hand, I set off to refresh that image.    THE CAMERA IS AWESOME!

20170524_141647.jpgCompared to the old device, I think this is a better camera than even a Real Camera I used to have back when married.   This phone rocks. It took the pictures shown here (but the smaller version posted does not do them justice).  My favorite is the “walnut” one above.  That was a happy little bit of Serendipity, where I was just snapping pics and wondered how it would focus if I just set it on the ground “upside down” near that walnut shell, and clicked the snap-pic button.   I was beyond pleased with the results!

That photo actually inspired a little “writing challenge” to be posted here later.

So now, with new phone in hand, a new “lease on life” and a new monthly payment (lol), I think I’ll endeavor to persevere and Blog a bit more too.   Might as well flex the fingers, since my Jogging/Walking the Year is also doing quite well with the warmer weather.  I personally hit 100 miles so far!   More than I’ve ever done I think. (or at least tracked.. which this phone can do too!)

The only thing that would make this reset even MORE exciting is if I payed off some debt and had less working-hours between the jobs… but that’s a brightness down the Tunnel for another time.   poi_blessing2A near-future time, so I’m looking forward to it, but today, it’s the little victories that count.   Every first step begins the Journey, after all!

Allons-y!

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Happy Solstice….

This says it better than I could type.  🙂

 

 

😀

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